Cerita Hari Ini

Dari awal pagi, aku tak ade buat ape-ape. Just stay kat rumah. Tido je memanjang. Aku tak contact satu hari ni, sebab belom sempat topup. Malam ada tahlil kat uzee cafe. Kak Ayu ajak. So, aku pegi. Lame tak bace Yassin. So, aku bace erti surah tu. Bulu roma aku naik sebab baru sekarang aku paham ape erti surah tu. Betul-betul menakutkan. Aku cube dalami, tapi aku tak nak terlalu taksub. Mungkin jadi isim nanti.

Dekat pukul 10, aku dan band (CLASSMATES), jamming untuk gig akan datang. KL BIG PARTY, dekat one cafe, 5 June ni. Practice lagu baru. Seronok jugak. Aku suke lagi tu, feel die lain macam. And part aku makin mencabar. Dakapan Dunia. Hahaha! agak layan la lagu ni. Time kitorang jamming, ramai gak la yang tengok. Aku pun agak segan main depan dorang. Tapi peduli ape an? We play music to show them, and for fun. :)

Penat-penat pun, pegi lepak kejap. Bandmates and Adib. Tibe-tibe datang Atan. Aduyai. Wat spoil betul. Tak habis-habis cite pasal die nak nikah la ape la. hahaha. aku tgk ucop dah macam malas je nak dgr. agak terganggu kat situ. Ajim isik kene bahan je dengan die. haha! Aku pun tak tau ape masalah si atan. Lepas lepak depan rumah Topek. Tak banyak yang die bualkan. Just lepak-lepak kosong.

Time tu dah lambat. Aku message eryn, die tak balas, call pun tak angkat. Dah tido agaknye. :) Rindu sangat kat die. Esok, kalau boleh aku nak layan die je. Dah bape hari aku tinggal die. Rindu sgt2. :)

Loser

I think i am Loser. That's capital L that people are calling me with it. That is the point of showing me, what i am. My exes left me for something, much more better. That i can't have. I can't do. I became arrogant. I'm not good at talking,drumming,study,relationship, and everything. I don't know what to do.
I just can cry and listen to my heart, what am i suppose to do? I can't figure. I just wanna be me. My family, friends, and exes, they hate me a lot. I was dumped, just because i'm being to perfect. Care, isn't what they wanted. They want more. I want more. I'm just a slave. I was a slave. keep doing all the things that they want but what about i want? I don't deserve a chance? no? What am i?

I am a loser. I fail my drum class all the time. I try to keep up, but they keep saying false to me. I can't keep up with those guys. Those musicans are great. They have talent, skills and everything. But i don't. They can use the drum set, as they want, but when i did, they keep pushing me around. I want my own drums. But my family can't afford.

I am a loser, where my friends keep talking shit about me and i just can't believe are they saying. I couldn't stop it. Coz it's to many of them. People keep trusting and keep telling other people as well. I'm a bad person too.Coz i have no right to talk. I have no guts to be listen. I can't talk. I just can shut my lips. And cry. What should i do?

I am a loser, where no one, listens to me. My dreams, my feelings, my heart. The pain inside, it keeps growing. As the pain goes by, i will be gone for a minute sleep, but that's the last minute for me. And when it's done, they will come and ask, 'what didn't you tell us about it? '. By the time, no more me. No more Loser.







No more..................... L...



P.s : what?

The Drumming

I got a lesson today. And it's cool. Jamming all weekend just find out the new songs from Classmates and a few from my other band. Well, It's been fun. The learning and everything. It's kinda cool to have a good relationship with friends who see us through something, not just for fun or shitheads thought. :)

Well, I learned a lesson today, about how important it is to read notes and stuff. You know, when you forgot your studies for something you really matter, it's such a badass thinking. From the top, I'm happy to be single and now I am. Because it's not pushing me to something that I can't imagine. Now I know what to do. Taking care of myself. Well, after the break up, I see me changing to me again. You know, drumming. I'm a bit lost last semester. Now I'm back again to be what I am. I know what to do, and what's not. The practice is more often than before. I see alots of Travis Barker video. Not only his technique, but also, his life.

He's a caring person, care about his ex-wife before. As he knows his responsibility on the bands, like Transplant, Blink 182, Plus 44. He still can manage to see his family and talk to them what is it about he's doing right now. Go on tour, to get money to raise his kids. He knows that. And for me, think about drums, think about yourself, and think about the future. That's what he says. Family is the most important.

Well, now I'm changing to me again. And my drumming, is growing. We'll see. :)

Bet you know?

They say he was born 6th July 1990. Raise by his parents and become a very unknown boy. His life is about losing at the start but wins at t he end. He knows what will happen. But sudden know it from his dreams. This boy were so dumb when he said he want to be a scientist, astronomy, what the hell was that is? He never knew. But all he knows that he will get to the sky, but not him, his music. As the SPM had pass by, he continue his life, in a journey of university life. Although he's begging not to go there. As for that, he know lots of new people, artist, and love. Falling in love, scandal, getting hurt again, not a cool thing. Now, he's studying at the famous and all people ever wanna go there for, UiTM.

About this kid, he's not a really charming kid. His life is miserable. He always plan for something that he's never going to get. He's a guy who full of hope. He never had a responsibility unless he has a couple with him. He's not a serious person. Laughing all the time. Never get angry, until his brain start to grow a thing that he neverthought it would happen. Whatever!! So, not much to say, so, see ya. Happy reading jackass!!