Loser

I think i am Loser. That's capital L that people are calling me with it. That is the point of showing me, what i am. My exes left me for something, much more better. That i can't have. I can't do. I became arrogant. I'm not good at talking,drumming,study,relationship, and everything. I don't know what to do.
I just can cry and listen to my heart, what am i suppose to do? I can't figure. I just wanna be me. My family, friends, and exes, they hate me a lot. I was dumped, just because i'm being to perfect. Care, isn't what they wanted. They want more. I want more. I'm just a slave. I was a slave. keep doing all the things that they want but what about i want? I don't deserve a chance? no? What am i?

I am a loser. I fail my drum class all the time. I try to keep up, but they keep saying false to me. I can't keep up with those guys. Those musicans are great. They have talent, skills and everything. But i don't. They can use the drum set, as they want, but when i did, they keep pushing me around. I want my own drums. But my family can't afford.

I am a loser, where my friends keep talking shit about me and i just can't believe are they saying. I couldn't stop it. Coz it's to many of them. People keep trusting and keep telling other people as well. I'm a bad person too.Coz i have no right to talk. I have no guts to be listen. I can't talk. I just can shut my lips. And cry. What should i do?

I am a loser, where no one, listens to me. My dreams, my feelings, my heart. The pain inside, it keeps growing. As the pain goes by, i will be gone for a minute sleep, but that's the last minute for me. And when it's done, they will come and ask, 'what didn't you tell us about it? '. By the time, no more me. No more Loser.







No more..................... L...



P.s : what?