Cerita Hari Ini

Dari awal pagi, aku tak ade buat ape-ape. Just stay kat rumah. Tido je memanjang. Aku tak contact satu hari ni, sebab belom sempat topup. Malam ada tahlil kat uzee cafe. Kak Ayu ajak. So, aku pegi. Lame tak bace Yassin. So, aku bace erti surah tu. Bulu roma aku naik sebab baru sekarang aku paham ape erti surah tu. Betul-betul menakutkan. Aku cube dalami, tapi aku tak nak terlalu taksub. Mungkin jadi isim nanti.

Dekat pukul 10, aku dan band (CLASSMATES), jamming untuk gig akan datang. KL BIG PARTY, dekat one cafe, 5 June ni. Practice lagu baru. Seronok jugak. Aku suke lagi tu, feel die lain macam. And part aku makin mencabar. Dakapan Dunia. Hahaha! agak layan la lagu ni. Time kitorang jamming, ramai gak la yang tengok. Aku pun agak segan main depan dorang. Tapi peduli ape an? We play music to show them, and for fun. :)

Penat-penat pun, pegi lepak kejap. Bandmates and Adib. Tibe-tibe datang Atan. Aduyai. Wat spoil betul. Tak habis-habis cite pasal die nak nikah la ape la. hahaha. aku tgk ucop dah macam malas je nak dgr. agak terganggu kat situ. Ajim isik kene bahan je dengan die. haha! Aku pun tak tau ape masalah si atan. Lepas lepak depan rumah Topek. Tak banyak yang die bualkan. Just lepak-lepak kosong.

Time tu dah lambat. Aku message eryn, die tak balas, call pun tak angkat. Dah tido agaknye. :) Rindu sangat kat die. Esok, kalau boleh aku nak layan die je. Dah bape hari aku tinggal die. Rindu sgt2. :)

Loser

I think i am Loser. That's capital L that people are calling me with it. That is the point of showing me, what i am. My exes left me for something, much more better. That i can't have. I can't do. I became arrogant. I'm not good at talking,drumming,study,relationship, and everything. I don't know what to do.
I just can cry and listen to my heart, what am i suppose to do? I can't figure. I just wanna be me. My family, friends, and exes, they hate me a lot. I was dumped, just because i'm being to perfect. Care, isn't what they wanted. They want more. I want more. I'm just a slave. I was a slave. keep doing all the things that they want but what about i want? I don't deserve a chance? no? What am i?

I am a loser. I fail my drum class all the time. I try to keep up, but they keep saying false to me. I can't keep up with those guys. Those musicans are great. They have talent, skills and everything. But i don't. They can use the drum set, as they want, but when i did, they keep pushing me around. I want my own drums. But my family can't afford.

I am a loser, where my friends keep talking shit about me and i just can't believe are they saying. I couldn't stop it. Coz it's to many of them. People keep trusting and keep telling other people as well. I'm a bad person too.Coz i have no right to talk. I have no guts to be listen. I can't talk. I just can shut my lips. And cry. What should i do?

I am a loser, where no one, listens to me. My dreams, my feelings, my heart. The pain inside, it keeps growing. As the pain goes by, i will be gone for a minute sleep, but that's the last minute for me. And when it's done, they will come and ask, 'what didn't you tell us about it? '. By the time, no more me. No more Loser.







No more..................... L...



P.s : what?